Figuring Out My Life Working At A Search Engine Optimization And Flash Design Firm
Lately my life has been a train wreck. I have a hard time attempting to accomplish anything I put my mind to. Although I have my B.S. in Marketing, I feel the need to take Web Design classes so I understand what I am exactly doing at my job Currently I am employed at a Pay Per Click firm in Chicago. My job is ok, but it is not at all what my boss told me it was going to be when I was hired. I am concerned that because I am shy and keep to myself that I am hurting my position at my company. When I first heard about Internet Marketing, I was in college and never even thought that I would be in the field one day.
Two years down the road I find myself here, working as a secretary/market analyst wondering how I wound up in this field. I had such dreams and working in Internet Marketing was not one of them. I understand that in order to do what you really love you have to do the grunt work first, but I already had a grunt job, so I feel as if I am ready for something more. Every now and then, when I have a bad day at work, I ask myself why I quit my other job. Working for a Pay Per Click is fine but if the position was really what they told me it was going to be, it would be a lot better. I know that I am complaining, and I don’t have a right to . I really just didn’t picture working with Internet Marketing following the previous work in finance that I did.
Maybe one of these days I’ll actually realize that I have a voice and use it to my advantage. My bosses would be forced to listen to me explain why I do what I do, and hopefully begin to understand. I really don’t mind working with PPC Search Engine as a 9 to 5 career. I do have a problem with people treating me like I am twelve . One person I work with always gives me these condescending smiles, as if they are better than me . I know that this is not a lot to complain about . The thing is, it’s not . My boyfriend, whom also worked in Internet Marketing as well, have been having many more arguments than we used to, which is still not a lot. He always says that I should just quit my job and that he will support me until I find something that I really want to do. He knows what it is like because he used to work in Flash Design too. He quit when he was offered a position as an engineer at a firm downtown . I wish I could quit my job at my Internet Marketing company.
One day I will figure out what it is exactly that I want to do . I am terrified that one day I will just pick up and leave everything, without any regrets, and also leaving my boyfriend behind. I am somewhat of a free spirit . I really have to figure out my next career move, and if it is going to involve Internet Marketing or Flash Design.
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